How Yoga May Just Save My Life(and my code)
After my first day of Yoga Teacher Training, I realized that this was the first time that I did something strenuous and hard–and didn’t push myself at the same time.
Let me explain.
I am a hard worker. A go getter, a super planner, and a slightly (ok…maybe moderately) obsessive compulsive geeky girl. I push hard for everything. EVERYTHING! But—this is different.
First off,
I never expected to be here.
This came about sort of by happenstance. As in, I just happened to suddenly quit my job (cause I couldn’t take it anymore) and that happened to lead me down a quest to understand what I really want. And to think about what I want to do with my life. That happened to see me applying for a yoga training scholarship, figuring that it may help me:
- get some much needed exercise
- help me deal with stress
Then I happened to get said scholarship, which landed me in an intensive yoga training program. At the same time that I am also doing an intensive coding bootcamp to become a ruby on rails developer. (But yogis just breathe through it all right?)
And though both experiences have been challenging, I have to say, that I think that i need to experience both at the same time. The type A part of my personality is so driven towards excellence, that my constant failings at software development can overwhelm me sometimes. This is usually the point where it is time for me to practice yoga anyway, and there I am reminded that I need to cherish myself more, and take care of myself. That success is not a one sided thing.
And when I get home and look at my code again, I can usually approach it differently, and work my way closer to a solution, or at least become more clear on where I am going wrong.
So although I wouldn’t necessarily recommend two intensive trainings at once–there is something to this approach. I am regressed back to childhood where my schedule has already been made, my needs have already been accommodated. It is just up to me to pack my snacks, be a good student, and do my homework.
And when it gets rough (which at this point feels to be at least once a day), I remind myself of what it felt like to be a job where I am not appreciated, commuting long hours, and longing for the chance to do something that allows me to grow again.
In that moment, its not so bad. I can do this.
Now….how do you put and array of arrays into a hash doing a for loop again?