All I Needed To Know, I Knew By Kindergarden…
A grandiose statement, I will admit. There is also a book written about the subject (see above), so these are not just my words. Although, I am finding that lately I am circling back to the way I used to be, way, way back then. And that got me thinking…
Are we all just trying to get back to the certainty that we had as little kids?
Maybe this is partly my psych degree talking, but the more that I consider the possibility, the more I find a case for it to be true. Being a scientist at heart, it is my habit to constantly question the world around me. I have been in pursuit of trying to determine who I am and what I am here to do since I can remember. But, it was only when I was really, really young did I seem to be the most confident in that answer.
I can remember blatantly saying to people that I would be a doctor, because I wanted to help people. I knew at a really young age that I loved music, and that I should be learning how to play the piano. I also knew that science was my thing, and I asked to go the museum on a regular basis. I was inquisitive about everything (go figure) and was happy to spend time alone reading and acting out the world around me. I knew who I was, and I was barely 3 years old.
Then I went to school, and doubt crept in. It didn’t happen all at once, but slowly over the years I started to question everything about myself. Who am I, do I deserve to be here? Am I as good as the rest? This continued through college and is a battle I still fight. So…
Did I really have the answer so long ago?
I am starting to find the answer to be yes. I got off the corporate conveyor belt and took some chances, invested in myself. What I have found is that…
I love learning
My interest are varied but all grounded by my curiosity
I need music to help me flow through life, and I want to learn to play the piano
I want to use my knowledge and skills to help people
I knew all this when I was 3. I knew who I was, and then I lost it. I think that happens to a lot of us. There are so many voices telling us who to be. We forget to listen to the most important one–The voice within.